March 2012
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“Art is the stored honey of the human soul, gathered on wings of misery and...”
– Theodore Dreiser (via wanderingzeffyr)
You won’t always get what you want. – As Mick Jagger once said, “You can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes you might find you get what you need.” Look around. Appreciate the things you have right now. Many people aren’t so lucky.
There will always be people who don’t like you. – You can’t be everything to everyone. No matter what you do, there will always be someone who thinks differently. So concentrate on doing what you know in your heart is right. What others think and say about you isn’t all that important. What is important is how you feel about yourself.
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http://www.marcandangel.com/2011/04/11/16-harsh-tru...
It takes more courage to reveal insecurities than to hide them, more strength to relate to people than to dominate them, more manhood (or womanhood) to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex. Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind. - Alex Karras
Life is not easy. – Hard work makes people lucky – it’s the stuff that brings dreams to reality. So...
#1 – Education and intelligence accomplish nothing without action.
It doesn’t matter if you have a genius IQ and a PhD in Quantum Physics, you can’t change anything or make any sort of real-world progress without taking action. There’s a huge difference between knowing how to do something and actually doing it. Knowledge and intelligence are both useless without action. It’s as simple as...
“Don’t listen to those who say, “It’s not done that way.”...”
– Neil Simon
New York in all its skyscraper glory
going back to school feels something like a wedding that I didn’t really plan, didn’t really sign up for, it’s just sort of happening, and I’m going through with it…
only three semesters…
all I know is, it’s not here, that I want to be.
It’s not here in this city under my parent’s roof with the weight of whatever it is hanging over my...
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How To Cope with Self-Doubt
A very major publication just reviewed my friend’s book. The reviewer loved the book and as I read the review, each laudatory sentence makes me more ill. I feel an overwhelming moment of self-doubt coming on. I get sweaty and my heart pounds and I feel like the world will end if I don’t have sugar.
My moments of self-doubt always begin with the panic that I will not do anything...
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How To Build A Career as An Artist
1. You cannot do art if you are starving. The starving artist routine is total bullshit. I know because I did it. Once you know that you are not going to make rent, you can’t really make art. Because your sense of self-preservation insists that your brain focus on the possibility that you will be out on the street. Your brain cannot stop solving that problem long enough to solve the problem...
Kenneth was telling me something about media filtration… media filtration as a source of discontent amongst us youngins. I think he must be right.
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Derek Walcott, "Love After Love" →
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The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror and each will smile at the other’s welcome, and say, sit here. Eat. You will love again the stranger who was your self. Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows...
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new email
new facebook
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The phrase “new roses” can serve as an antidote to neurosis — as a kind of magical spell. You might invoke it when you’re in danger of getting undermined by either your own neurosis or someone else’s. If you notice, for instance, that your subconscious mind is spiraling down into a sour fantasy stirred up by one of your habitual fears, you could mutter a cheerful...
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I’m set on the book. Don’t know when I’m going to finish it, or what I’ll really do with it, but I think I need to put it out there, my secrets, if no one else’s.
I need to put it out there as a question—
where is the line between normality and cultural divide? What is the line between right and wrong?
Where does striving for individuality collide, start to...
“The Oxford English Dictionary, an authority on the state of the English...”
– Rob Brezny, Mar. 1
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because everyone has pain, deep down inside of them, but ours is the exact same color.
Do I still believe that? Is that still true?
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I just survived a week of layovers (another week on the chopping block left). The transition from telemarketing to fundraising has been rocky, because the ballet is running low on funds, they’re only keeping the people who make the most money, and I did well enough in marketing that Erick is giving me a good run at training in a tight spot.
When I first started this campaign, Paul was...
this is my perpetual problem
I have this need to be special. To prove that I’m not going to fall into my stereotype of doctor or lawyer… or beautiful shanghainese housewife and I’m so afraid of becoming ordinary that sometimes I make my life harder than it needs to be.. that I hold myself to impossible standards—my mother tells me that I can’t be a film director and I say fuck all, Mom, I’m...
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“Stereotype threat is the idea that we are all aware of the stereotypes that...”
– Toure: Jeremy Lin’s Victory over Stereotype Threat | TIME Ideas | TIME.com (via npr)
February 2012
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I want to be a filmmaker as brave and bold as Andrea Arnold, because she fearlessly tackles themes that society tries to brush under the rug.
Like, poverty and economic status in Fish Tank,
and now race in Wuthering Heights (FINALLY A REAL WUTHERING HEIGHTS)
or people like Steve McQueen, who do take historical biopics to a whole new level (Hunger) and aren’t afraid to expose human...
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Arnold makes powerful sense of Brontë’s novel and its passionate argument, long recognised by feminist critics in relation to Catherine: that there can be no true love, because there is no true freedom in a society where there is any form of power and domination. Rose concludes: “Through Heathcliff, Wuthering Heights unsettled formerly stable boundaries of 19th-century Britain,...
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from the Guardian
Andrea Arnold’s forthcoming adaptation of Emily Brontë’s classic 1847 novel Wuthering Heights, will see, for the first time, the character of Heathcliff played on screen by a mixed race actor.
Wuthering Heights
Production year: 2011
Directors: Andrea Arnold
Cast: Kaya Scodelario, Nichola Burley, Oliver Milburn
More on this film
The casting of unknown actor James Howson, who...
Patrick says that I’m way too honest to be in management. I’m like, how am I going to direct, then?
He says that directing is all about honesty. Your actors have to be able to trust you.
Well whoopdedoo, I told him. I’m going to be a poor, starving director.
Simone says I need to meet a trust fund baby. But I told her those people are boring.
Mitch and I have decided that if we get laid off for the next two months, we’re going to go on unemployment, and maybe pool our resources, and go to Bali.
I JK.
Looking for new sales jobs as we speak.
Freelancing is starting to get a litttttle bit tricky.
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Mitch says he’s been investing his money since he was 16. I’m like, WHAT?!
After this ballet/opera/theater stuff ends I want to work at a bank. My father says I need to learn more about finances, and I think that would be a good place to start.
Plus those fools get health insurance.
costumes costumes costumes costumes costumes costumes
I really want to get hired at the Opera. Because I know those dresses are gonna be BOMB
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Give me hope in silence It’s easier, it’s kinder Tell me not of heartbreak It plagues my soul, it plagues my soul And bury me beside you I have no hope in solitude And the world will follow To the earth down below But I came and I was nothing Time will give us nothing So why did you choose to lean on A man you knew was falling?
“The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that...”
– Albert Camus
“Creative Confidence: Having the freedom and courage to fail/take creative risks...”
Ron asked me why it was I was so adamant on the individual major… it’s a lot of extra work, and requires a lot more effort, and 90% of the people who go through CED don’t feel the need to define their own course of study
and I told him, that I’ve been trained in so many art forms, but I never knew a sense of my own volition, I never had creative control, I never exercised...
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David and I were talking about that dissociative feeling in high school… of being a complete drone that doesn’t feel within yourself…
what is that, anyway?
what am I ever really feeling?
I’m such an actress. I know just how to play it. But I don’t know who or what I want to play.
You just give and give and give and give and give yourself away.
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spent a night in studio (WHATTT) with fellow Lowellite Anna Vignet dishing about the crazy kids from our high school and where we’re all going after college.
(Boston?! Brooklyn?! SF?! Oakland?!)
Feel weirdly at home in that cold concrete building where time does not exist and people never sleep…
can’t believe everyone’s leaving this semester…
and I’m going...
what are my excuses for how scared and frightened of life I am these days?
sometimes I don’t know what I’m chasing anymore, I’m resigned to just be.
